My situation.....it's complicated.
I have made one big mistake. Really big, which I myself would not forgive myself. (?_?')
I am a human, and I made mistakes...but, often we never realize we make mistake until it's too late...and when that happens, one thing that you regret the most is, realizing the facts that you can never be able to turn back time.
Now, I wish I would just... disappear from this place... becoming invisible... being far away from everyone that I know... being in a place where nobody knows me...
What I am feeling right now, has no difference of still being unhealed from my previous sickness. What is the purpose of being healed if I'm still with having this frown face?
There's a song that says.... "smile though your heart is aching, smile even though it's breaking... "
when it comes to heartache which appears to be cause by your own mistakes...you can never smile... especially, when the word "Sorry" has no meaning at this point... 'Guilty' - that's the correct word to describe my situation...
My life has become so miserable... this good girl is no longer a good girl... or probably I've never been good afterall... I have disappoint so many people around me... yes, disappoint YOU, whom are reading this post, too...
I have no other better words than to say I am really sorry... although I know it's meaningless to you. Sorry I screwed everything... I know I don't deserve a forgiveness... and I know, life after this will never be the same.
No need for me to mention what happens...words will spread itself quickly... soon, you will know.
I am really, really sorry... that's all that I could say....
I accept whatever might gonna come after this...
Lo que pero, pero... :'(
~xoxo~
