Saturday, February 5, 2011

Lo Que Pero, Pero...

What ever may be, be... That's the meaning of the Spanish quotes...

My situation.....it's complicated.

I have made one big mistake. Really big, which I myself would not forgive myself. (?_?')

I am a human, and I made mistakes...but, often we never realize we make mistake until it's too late...and when that happens, one thing that you regret the most is, realizing the facts that you can never be able to turn back time. 



Now, I wish I would just... disappear from this place... becoming invisible... being far away from everyone that I know... being in a place where nobody knows me...

What I am feeling right now, has no difference of still being unhealed from my previous sickness. What is the purpose of being healed if I'm still with having this frown face?

There's a song that says.... "smile though your heart is aching, smile even though it's breaking... "
when it comes to heartache which appears to be cause by your own mistakes...you can never smile... especially, when the word "Sorry" has no meaning at this point... 'Guilty' - that's the correct word to describe my situation...

My life has become so miserable... this good girl is no longer a good girl... or probably I've never been good afterall... I have disappoint so many people around me... yes, disappoint YOU, whom are reading this post, too...
I have no other better words than to say I am really sorry... although I know it's meaningless to you. Sorry I screwed everything... I know I don't deserve a forgiveness... and I know, life after this will never be the same.

No need for me to mention what happens...words will spread itself quickly... soon, you will know.

I am really, really sorry... that's all that I could say....

I accept whatever might gonna come after this...
Lo que pero, pero... :'(






~xoxo~
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6 comments:

Endun said...

God knows we're going to make mistakes.He knows we're not perfect,so HE provides fresh,new mercy and grace everyday..God loves u..xxx

Gna_Eb said...

Nobody is perfect & each of us make mistakes sist. Nothing to regret look it at +ve side, take it as next step in life decision making. God loves you.

Azhar85 said...

Hi Lady Ethel,

Sorry to interrupt, but, I want to say whenever people make mistake..although the biggest mistake ever, if they said they don't deserve an apologize only regret..but deep in their heart..they still want to be apologize and make redemption...I think it's the same 4 you..

I hope they will understand your regret n your pain...

Tiq said...

Oh my, oh my sis..what's going on? Just got home and read your post.
I definitely understand how you feel especially when we are in the 'battle field' situation. Whatever that is happening in your life right now, don't lose focus. We all have our stories. Life is a journey to be experienced, we all are in the learning process, sometimes we lost our way, but it's something that we should learn how to embrace.
I believe it's a way of reminding ourselves.
I am sending you a huge hug, love & kisses sis !!!

Jo Ann said...

I know we don't know each other personally, but I too have made mistakes and great ones at that. Ones to which I lost my family over and I know the pain can take you to dark places, but remember one day the light will come back. You will be able to forgive yourself and in time those who really love you will too. Stay strong and know things will get brighter.

JoEtheL said...

thank you, friends for the sweet advice...it really comforts me..
thanks for being here when i need it the most..