The Coffee Talk

This is a conversation between my mom and I during my visit to my parent's house this in the evening:

Mom: *served me a cup of drink* Here's your drink.
Me: *look at the cup and then check the time on my watch. Approx. 8.30-9.00p.m.* A coffee at this time?
Mom: It's o.k. Tomorrow is a holiday anyway.

Me is not really a coffee drinker. I drink coffee occasionally. So, for me drinking coffee after dinner means you wants to stay awake for the night.

I am the kind of person who can survive the day without a coffee. I just not addicted to the coffee-caffeine, I guess. I am more a cocoa type of person. A thick plain iced Milo is my favorite drink. Just thinking of it makes me go 'yummmm...' :p

Anyway, thanks for the holiday reminder mom.

Happy Labour Day, Malaysians!

-xoxo-
joethel

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Fixing A Broken Heart

Left alone at home last night... without a thing to do... the TV is on, but nothing interest me ... I opened my laptop, tried to continue my work... D*** H***!!! I cannot concentrate on that either.

Alone... alone... alone... I hate this feeling... It makes me started thinking about so many things... even the stupidest thing in the world a person could've ever thought.... :'(

It has been 5 nights in a row... I cried myself 'til sleep... This guilt... It's haunting my mind... I can't stop thinking about what had happened. Blame it on me! Blame it on me!.... d***! now the Akon's song came on my mind...

"...If I can't apologize for being wrong

Then it's just a shame on me

I am the reason for your pain

You can put the blame on me..."

As I was about to sleep... you text me. Saying that you were thinking about the same thing, and it's bugging you... I am so sorry.... blame it on me! blame it on me!... These tears of guilt keep pouring and pouring... This heart full of fears keep screaming... it wonders, when will this pain ends... it hurts for cause this heart has gave you pain... I'm sorry...

I'm asking for a second chance..dear, give me time... to fix all the mess I've made... I know that I can't turn back the time... It's gonna be hard for us to pass through this pain... Although I know, life will never be the same again...just give me the chance to lead us back to the path we've made...the path that I almost destroyed.

~xoxo~

Lo Que Pero, Pero...

What ever may be, be... That's the meaning of the Spanish quotes...

My situation.....it's complicated.

I have made one big mistake. Really big, which I myself would not forgive myself. (?_?')

I am a human, and I made mistakes...but, often we never realize we make mistake until it's too late...and when that happens, one thing that you regret the most is, realizing the facts that you can never be able to turn back time. 

Now, I wish I would just... disappear from this place... becoming invisible... being far away from everyone that I know... being in a place where nobody knows me...

What I am feeling right now, has no difference of still being unhealed from my previous sickness. What is the purpose of being healed if I'm still with having this frown face?

There's a song that says.... "smile though your heart is aching, smile even though it's breaking... "

when it comes to heartache which appears to be cause by your own mistakes...you can never smile... especially, when the word "Sorry" has no meaning at this point... 'Guilty' - that's the correct word to describe my situation...

My life has become so miserable... this good girl is no longer a good girl... or probably I've never been good afterall... I have disappoint so many people around me... yes, disappoint YOU, whom are reading this post, too...

I have no other better words than to say I am really sorry... although I know it's meaningless to you. Sorry I screwed everything... I know I don't deserve a forgiveness... and I know, life after this will never be the same.

No need for me to mention what happens...words will spread itself quickly... soon, you will know.

I am really, really sorry... that's all that I could say....

I accept whatever might gonna come after this...

Lo que pero, pero... :'(

~xoxo~

My current situation...

hmmm........
I am.....really..... not good in stress handling....

~xoxo~

Fact of Life

"When life encounters troubles/difficulties...selfishness is the way to survive" - J.

Human life is always about problems... quotes by Nando Parrado, Survivor of Andes, is a great inspiration and motivation. During Youth Engagement Summit 2009 (YES2009) in PICC he says:

"When there's something wrong with your life, the universe doesn't stop. It continues, and so should you."-Nando Parrado

So, be STRONG!

~xoxo~

After 4 month...

ahh...here i am..back again after 4 month has past..

I have been very busy...even now I'm stealing my lunch hour for this post..though, I did tried to post a topic previously but I stop half way and didn't manage to publish it. Hope I will not stop half way for this post.

Let me just summarize my activity for the previous month...

I finished my studies end of December last year...In mid of January I started my 3months on job training(ojt) in a company at Serdang...it quite a long distance and kinda costly for me to travel back and forth from home to my workplace using public transport. I always went off early from home and came back late after work. Not to mention the tireness I have to face everyday, with trains packed with people and 4times train&bus transit in order to get to work. My Life is very stressful that time.

Let me just call the company that I go for ojt as my company. Ok, my company manage to get a project with a government company at Technology Park Malaysia(TPM) and my boss needs to send some of his staff to TPM. Since my company is lack of workers to be sent to tpm as the other workers are involved in other projects, I was offered to be permanent staff in the company and ofcourse still have to go through 3months probision. Finally, here I am..now working in tpm for 2 months already..

Lots of things had happened for the past 4 months...too many to mention here...otherwise I won't manage to publish this post...but i will try to post some of the best things that i have done previously.

Gotta go and continue my work for now...will be back again soon...

~XOXO~

Oh...time

Whoaa...August almost ended...gotta post something...I've been quiet for quite a long time...having a few life changes...meet new people...make new friends...fun weekends...lovely weekdays... I'm so happy with my new life...

Da gurls @ HRC

From right: sis nora,sis jenn, me n my bf

Steamboat dinner at Restoran Talipon with KLLC members

The girls @ Ruai

July...Oh, July...

It's finally here...! Month of July...my favorite month...want to know why?

Once upon a time...on a month of July...a story of 3 lil' siblings begun...
July 14, 1984 - A happily married couple been blessed with their first daughter. This lucky Chinese-looking baby girl has been named Priscilla.
July 31, 1985 - Another child was borne at 4o'clock in the morning. Puffed-up face and big pair of eyes,this cute girl has been named Joanna.
July 4, 1989 - Little brother for these two sisters was borne and being named Ephrem.

Yes, That's it. Our Birthday is on July.

Every year, on July... my family will start taking heed on each one of my siblings' birthday...
lucky us, my parents would not forget our birthday because we're all born on the same month...unlucky for my parents when they had to prepare something on each of their children's birthday...and sometimes unlucky for us, their children, when our birthday celebration been combined all together once on any day in that month..

The July Siblings

Home Sweet Home...

I'm back!!!

Previous semester is over...It's holiday...no assignment...no exams...no stress...
And the very best thing happen is...I'M HOME!!!...ah, finally... I'm home, I'm home, I'm home...time for rest...yay!
Just came back to my home town...Bintulu... I really miss home...my mummy, my daddy, my cute lil' cousins...and I miss my cute-pinky bedroom too...huhu

Now I've got the time...although the holiday is just a week...I will appreciate every moment and do as much things that I wish to do...

I'm back with my new postings...going to post next topic soon..
and the-not-so-poetic Lady Ethel will be back too...
Everyone...let's rock the blog...!Ahakz

People...people...people...

**With regards to previous posting....**

We live together in this world...meeting new people...some we might knew while the others we never thought we would meet them...whenever and where ever fate will bring us together...
Different people has different type of personalities...whether we like it or not...some of this people can be annoying...and you cannot avoid meeting them...

What brought me to come up with this story?

It happens when I was on my way to college last Monday...the train was crowded with people... It's not a comfortable condition at that time...everyone feels the same i guess...then there's a guy...through my first impression, he probably think he's so much better then anyone else... the train was really packed, but still this guy asked anyone who stand too close to him to space a bit away from him...then he shook his head and make an arrogant facial expression...but I'm not the only one who dislike the guy...right after that i noticed another guy just a few distance away from him, gave the arrogant guy an-unbelievable-look... and then rolled his eyes away...*smiling to myself* I thought a lot more people in the train feels the same towards the arrogant guy...

3 weeks before,with the same Monday routine-went to class by train...even though I came to train station early, the train still arrived late because of delay(gosh!)..and as usual, crowded with people...then, there's another annoying guy on the train(oh! unfortunate me-always meet annoying people on train)...There's nothing wrong with anyone who wants to talk on the phone, but the problem with this guy is...he talk very loudly as if he wanted the whole world know what he's talking about...plus...non-stop talking and laughing loudly the whole journey...(argh!! he really gives me headache early in the morning!)...

Yet...who am I to judge people...let people be what ever they want to be...

Oh!What a journey....!

Terrible journey to KLMUC...full of hopeless hope…

It’s June 2,2008 and I slept late last night, 'cuz yesterday I had a terrible day – don’t ask me what happened ‘cuz I don’t want to remember and oh my, don't tell me I'm going to have terrible day-everyday(Help!)... Therefore, I still feel tired and sleepy right now...luckily it won't affect my mood today (…since I'm a moody person...). Well, I was hoping for a quick and perfect journey to my college this morning (huh, of course…everyone wants a perfect day…)

I was on my way to college from my sister's place at Subang Jaya this morning. Oh, before that let me rewind my life to the earlier part. My alarm rings at 6.30a.m...but since I'm still so tired, so I postponed it to 15min later... Last night, my sister's house mate offered to give me a ride to Subang Jaya KTM station, so I forced myself to wake up right before my alarm rings at 6.44am. I manage to prepare myself early hoping (...again-hoping) that I can reach to college on time.

I reach KTM station at 8.30a.m...I know I won't be able to make it on time to college, but I still hope I can attend the first class. OK, here comes the terrible part… The most unwanted thing happens when you're in hurry; the train was delayed for half an hour...In terms of time, it’s still its fine for me. Well, you know…students being late to college…its normal I guess (...hmm...is it?*wondering*)…Then, I look up at the people who are also just like me, waiting for the train...and I was like- OMG! All these people are going to squeeze themselves in the train! (*with my eyes and mouth wide open*)…

Half an hour later, the train arrived (finally)…and it’s already too crowded in the train but people keep squeezing in…I have no choice but to join them, otherwise I’ll be late for my favorite English class (*wink*) and I don’t want that to happen…I’m the last person to enter the train, hoping that I can stick near to the train’s door until I reach Bank Negara (my destination)…Again, it became hopeless hope ‘cuz at the next stop, I have to move further in so that other people can enter the train...

At each stop, more and more people get in to the train and I’m dying to have fresh air…believe me, you’ll never want to be in my situation at that time with all kinds of smells (oh my, I can’t believe a cute girl like me have to endure it all...) plus, there’s a few people who really annoys me(I’m going to discuss this in other topic later on…I have lots of story to share about it)…I really wish I could knock their head…

After the tough journey…I keep wondering why the government or advertisement or whoever may concern, suggests people to use public transport to avoid traffic jam on road while more or less situation happens with public transportation…Not only KTM but LRT and buses are also the same…The train story I told above happens in the morning…Can you imagine what happens in the evening after everyone gets very tired, rushing home and not forget to mention the ‘smell’…think about that!

Almost every week, after class on Friday I went back to my sister’s house by bus. I usually bring two bags with me. One bag for my notebook (Its 2.4kg and its quite heavy for long journey traveler) and another bag is for my personal stuff (just like some other girls, I like to bring lots of stuff anywhere if I’m away from home)…Imagine my condition riding a bus that is always full with people especially foreign workers…Sometimes I had to stand throughout the more or less one hour journey…not included continuous time caused by traffic jam…Gosh! It really spoils my cuteness (*wink*)…Oh! What a journey…

**It's my hoping day...count how many times I use the word 'hope'.

Joethel's day out (It's Sale season!!!)

Shopping... Shopping... Shopping
That is my favorite activity...especially during sale season with lots of cute stuff with cute prices... oh, gosh...it's heaven..
Yesterday, I went to Sunway Pyramid. For me, Sunway Pyramid is nothing. Almost every week I would visit SP 'coz my elder sister works over there. Anyway, my sister and I went there for karaoke...when we enter SP, that place looks different from its usual plain outlets with expensive items... now offers and discounts are everywhere...from 10% up to 80% discount..OMG! I have to bite my own lips to keep myself from grabbing everything..
At first, my sister and I decided to do our usual window shopping 'only'..i repeat 'only'....After a walk around the whole building, finally we ended up carrying lots of plastic bags. Fortunately, we came by public transport. If we had our own car, the boots and backseats might be full stuffed with goods, i guess...
For today, my sister and I planed to go KLCC. There's bookfest going on since last week and today is final day of bookfest. KLCC here I come...

When The Heart Speaks...

TIME...

An indistinct sound of music
Humming in my ears,
Playing an old song that I used to sing…
Arousing the past memories
As if everything happens yesterday.
Happiness and sadness
All at once
Drew a full house in my heart…
Standing here,
Stuck in the middle of marching time
Wish I could turn back the time
Went back to the time that had been left behind
Covers all mistakes that I had done before
Went through all happy moments that I used to had
Oh past…how I missed you

No…
I shall not look back to the past
I have left it behind…and that’s how it should be…
Let bygones be bygones
I learned nothing if my life are always so perfect
Mistakes teach us how to grow.
Past cheeriness,
Let it remains in my memory…
Hope it will shine my future towards happiness.
Tomorrow will be today...and today will be yesterday
Time waits for nobody...
I will grab and hold on tight for my future.
I shall live my life the fullest.

~Yay.. I wrote this...I tried my very best to use 'poetic' words..correct me if I'm wrong..do not hesitate to give suggestion,if you have any better words to replace mine...thanks~