Love Me or Let Me Go

A 16 year old singer and song writer. I kinda like her. How about you? Let's hear her own music video... with lyrics.

Verse1:
stuck, stuck in your picture perfect fantasy world.
keep runnin circles in your merry go around, so
for once, dont try to tell me which way to go, oh woah.

im gettin tired of trying to fit your description,
of that girl, she's so barbie she's so fiction.
wake up, your mind is somewhere stuck in a dream, oh woah.

i'm suffocating i need to know

chorus:
If this isn't real, gimme back all my kisses
I shoulda kept them for somebody else
Baby I'm real, I'm not your plastic princess
Maybe you need to get over yourself
i'm not that naive
there's more underneath
Love me or let me go
oh, love me or let me go, oh
Love me or let me,

Verse2:
Go go, i'm over your charade so,
Its game over, unless your coming to your senses,
So, step down from your pedestal, oh woah.

You're sellin lies by the dozen i'm not buying them,
Your stores goin out of buisness so you better,
Make up your mind, oh woah.

I'm breaking down and i need to know

chorus:
If this isn't real gimme back all my kisses
I shoulda kept them for somebody else
Baby I'm real, I'm not your plastic princess
Maybe you need to get over yourself
i'm not that naive
theres more underneath
love me or let me go

Bridge:
And you know theres been 2 many wrongs so,
Boy get down on your knees if you want me,
yeah you better treat me right if,
you wanna kick it with me.
you wanna kick it with me, boy get down your knees.
i'm lettin you know.

chorus:
If this isn't real gimme back all my kisses
I shoulda kept them for somebody else
Baby I'm real, I'm not your plastic princess
Maybe you need to get over yourself
i'm not that naive
theres more underneath
love me or let me go

~xoxo~

10 sweet words

Some sweet quotes shared by TheNoteboook:

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~xoxo~

Dare To Go Red???

These are some old photos of me...just feel like posting it today since yesterday is Valentine's Day :D

What is the color RED means to you?

err...I know my lipstick color is not red enough compare to my nails...I should have wore blood red lipstick

match with my red heels...yummy... :p

Hereby, I would like to announce I will be back with my nail coloring activity... can't wait to share my new stuff with you guys :D

~xoxo~

Four

I know Miss Tiq has tagged me long time ago :p...sorry for the late post..hehe...

so, here's my FOUR:

four shows you watch

American Idol

Glee

The Kardashians

CSI

*i don't have a particular shows that I'm really following actually :p*

four things you are passionate about

Movies

Musics

Nail arting/coloring

Blogging :D

four phrases you say a lot

ermmm....

maybe

kot...

entah la....

four things you've learned from the past

Loyalty

Think before you do something

Smile & Laugh often

Live life more extraordinary as you could be

four places you would like to go

Paris

Bali

Sabah

Dubai

*too much to be listed actually...*

four things you did yesterday

work
cook

watch tv

sleep

*hmmm...basically my daily routine*

four things you are looking forward to

New job

new home *winks*

blogshop coming up *big grin*

new lifestyle???

four bloggers who should share their list of fours

My beautiful cousin... Strawbery

My blogfriends... sicko^ and azhar85

and...cik Endun

if you are inspired, play along! leave four of your own category in the comments.

~xoxo~

O.M.Geeeeezzzz!

I have another confession to make....

I did something  that I love and excited about but then, it makes me feel bad after a few hours/days when I thought back of what I did...especially during this...erm...financial crisis era of my life...

Sorry papa....

Yesterday,

I spent...err...quite a lot... huhu.. dah la gaji seciput...hutang keliling pinggang...mok berenti kerja gik...kerja baru belom dapat gik...tapi boleh gik gi shopping sik ingat dunia... uwaaaa!!

Sorry mommy...

If my mom knew about this... she will be mad at me... she always reminded me to do some savings... she would say, "no need to go shopping if it is not something that you really need..try save some money, for your future".

Now, I banned myself from going near Berjaya Time Square or Bukit Bintang...err..unless I went there for movie watching :p

I blog about this...because... my addiction to shop is beyond my control. Now only I realize, I don't need to shop that much...Now only I realize, I don't really need some stuff that i already bought... *sob sob sob*. I really need everyone to remind me the word 'STOP!'.

~xoxo~

Start Again

Baby, it breaks my heart that you don’t smile anymore
I’m dying to help you heal but you won’t unlock your door
You say it takes time, but you don’t have to spend it alone

You’re stuck in the memory that you desperately to rewind
You’re too busy looking back, won’t you make another try
Now your trust is gone, but you won’t find it again on your own

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start
You’re still holding a broken heart
But if you let me in (let me in)
Baby, you can start again (start again)

And don’t go telling me there’s no second chance
You’ll understand when you take my hand
Baby let me in (let me in)
I promise we will start again (start again)

Trying to get to you so I make this promises
I swear they are breakable, but you still just hearing hiss
I won’t let you go ’til you decided you want to be free

You’re haunted by yesterday and still sore from the fall
All you need is to whitewash this old walls
Paint something new, if you let yourself listen to me

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start
You’re still holding a broken heart
But if you let me in (let me in)
Baby, you can start again (start again)

And don’t go telling me there’s no second chance
You’ll understand when you take my hand
Baby, let me in (let me in)
I promise we will start again (start again)

Don’t give up yet, I won’t let you close the curtain too soon
We can reset, you can take the leap and let me show you
You just gotta make the choice.. yeah..

We love , we lose, and you think that the best defense is distance
You know, what now, put it on the mute so you can listen
But there’s a way out of here, just follow my voice

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start
You’re still holding a broken heart
But if you let me in
Yeah….

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start
You’re still holding a broken heart (a broken heart)
But if you let me in (let me in)
Baby, you can start again (Baby, you can start again)

And don’t go telling me there’s no second chance (you’ll understand)
You’ll understand when you take my hand (take my hand)
Baby, let me in (let me in)
I promise we will start again (I promise we will start again)

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start
You’re still holding a broken heart
But if you let me in (let me in)
Baby, you can start again

~xoxo~

The Change

1. Social Network

I have deactivated my Facebook account.... againnnn... why? - no reason... just want to get away... when will I get back? - I don't think I'm going to reactivate it again this near time... just don't look for me in FB ok.. However, I'm still updating my dailybooth...although I'm not updating it daily, it's just a right place for a cam-whore like me :p... it's a twiter-like micro-blogging social network site...more on photo-blogging...whatever...I don't have many friends there..why don't you join me? ngehehe :p

2. Job

It has been 6 days already, I have submitted my resignation letter..I feel relieved actually. I have been planning to change my job since 2009??? well, I did try to resigned before, but I don't really have a good reason to leave my current company. I did not leave after they have encountered me with $$$ :p...ada mcm mata duitan punya orang tak? ($_$)

That's not going to happen this year. Well, I told everyone, my reason for leaving the company is to get married. huhh..??? Which is actually not true (shhhh.....!!) In this case, my employer will not be able to encountered me with $$$ again :p.

But the bad news is.... I haven't got any replacement job yet... not even started applying for one either..duhhh!!! (huh! belani mati punya olang) Should start job-hunting real soon!

Actually, my mum wanted me and my fiance to go back and find a job in Sarawak..but, my fiance too going to change his job soon...from shift job to a normal working hour job.. while me, not-a-PJJ-kind of person need to stay near with him :p...so, going back-working in hometown is still not in plan yet..ngeheheh

3. Baby Connie

I was known as a speeding and also reckless driver on road..but, actually, I'm not if compared to other much reckless driver. :p..well, I admit I did so many bad things to my baby, Connie. I bump into holes,  went contravening the road beam/divider (what ever you call that). As the result, baby Connie lost 2 rim cover. :p... I remember, last year I made baby Connie kiss other people's car on the butt, I've been driving more carefully since then. Still, I'm driving too fast...I think. What ever it is..I decided to change. I  am going to drive slowly and carefully. This will also help reduce fuel consumption which is good since fuel price becoming more  and more expensive nowadays.

Last year, baby Connie has a sister...err, Black Beauty?? well, since black beauty has been transferred with it's owner back to Sarawak...little baby Connie alone will have to transport my families(including future in laws) whenever they came to visit. My mom suggest me to upgrade baby Connie to a bigger type that can accommodate more people and her suggestion is the new Saga FL. Since, I'm quitting job...I think this  change need to hold on for a while. Besides, I'm not ready to give away my first car..I have so many precious moments with baby Connie.

4. Myself

One most important change that I need to do is myself. A lot of things about myself that I need to change. Self-improvement.....

Just like the Butterfly,

I have the Strength and Hope to Believe 

In time, 

I will emerge from the cocoon. 

Transformed. 

~xoxo~

Fixing A Broken Heart

Left alone at home last night... without a thing to do... the TV is on, but nothing interest me ... I opened my laptop, tried to continue my work... D*** H***!!! I cannot concentrate on that either.

Alone... alone... alone... I hate this feeling... It makes me started thinking about so many things... even the stupidest thing in the world a person could've ever thought.... :'(

It has been 5 nights in a row... I cried myself 'til sleep... This guilt... It's haunting my mind... I can't stop thinking about what had happened. Blame it on me! Blame it on me!.... d***! now the Akon's song came on my mind...

"...If I can't apologize for being wrong

Then it's just a shame on me

I am the reason for your pain

You can put the blame on me..."

As I was about to sleep... you text me. Saying that you were thinking about the same thing, and it's bugging you... I am so sorry.... blame it on me! blame it on me!... These tears of guilt keep pouring and pouring... This heart full of fears keep screaming... it wonders, when will this pain ends... it hurts for cause this heart has gave you pain... I'm sorry...

I'm asking for a second chance..dear, give me time... to fix all the mess I've made... I know that I can't turn back the time... It's gonna be hard for us to pass through this pain... Although I know, life will never be the same again...just give me the chance to lead us back to the path we've made...the path that I almost destroyed.

~xoxo~

Lo Que Pero, Pero...

What ever may be, be... That's the meaning of the Spanish quotes...

My situation.....it's complicated.

I have made one big mistake. Really big, which I myself would not forgive myself. (?_?')

I am a human, and I made mistakes...but, often we never realize we make mistake until it's too late...and when that happens, one thing that you regret the most is, realizing the facts that you can never be able to turn back time. 

Now, I wish I would just... disappear from this place... becoming invisible... being far away from everyone that I know... being in a place where nobody knows me...

What I am feeling right now, has no difference of still being unhealed from my previous sickness. What is the purpose of being healed if I'm still with having this frown face?

There's a song that says.... "smile though your heart is aching, smile even though it's breaking... "

when it comes to heartache which appears to be cause by your own mistakes...you can never smile... especially, when the word "Sorry" has no meaning at this point... 'Guilty' - that's the correct word to describe my situation...

My life has become so miserable... this good girl is no longer a good girl... or probably I've never been good afterall... I have disappoint so many people around me... yes, disappoint YOU, whom are reading this post, too...

I have no other better words than to say I am really sorry... although I know it's meaningless to you. Sorry I screwed everything... I know I don't deserve a forgiveness... and I know, life after this will never be the same.

No need for me to mention what happens...words will spread itself quickly... soon, you will know.

I am really, really sorry... that's all that I could say....

I accept whatever might gonna come after this...

Lo que pero, pero... :'(

~xoxo~

Ada serupa ka?

 JoEtheL vs CatInLimeHat

(cat photo credit to Mr.Google)

Glad that I can smile normally again....

yeap, This year resolution:

Smile & Laugh & Smile & Laugh & Smile & Laugh & Smile & Laugh

& Smile & Laugh & Smile & Laugh & Smile & Laugh

& Smile & Laugh & Smile & Laugh

& Smile & Laugh

~xoxo~